Saturday, January 28, 2012
Finding a Shore
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Running Away Again
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Lonely at Work
Sometimes people make you feel so special and their actions surprise you. Some times you get positive friendly vibes and become friends. They start becoming a part of your life though not the most important part. Then they suddenly disappear or play up their mood swings. Every relationship requires nurture in some way...especially when you have close physical proximity. But it seems everything is a lie rather than an illusion.
I do swear that I will not walk that lane again and I promise not to be taken for granted.
I drown inside a deluge of work
With phone calls, emails, meetings, and reviews.
She hardly cares nowadays
Did she ever care
I am so amazed
Is she just like the others
Vain and carefree really?
And I thought sunny side will be up always
That tower of positivity
Is now razed
I am a fool
I have been a fool
I am so sincere in my work
But I have no light moments to share
I really have no one who cares
With no one at home
A smile at work means so much to me
A smile, a kind word, a pat, and some charity.
No judgment though
Only some bits of gaiety.
I don't even have chat buddies at work
I am so blue at times.
More so because she hardly cares nowadays
When only lately she seemed fine.
I don't expect much...
Because for her...
I may be just a time pass.
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
Mistakes that We Repeat
All false smiles will fade away soon
Friends may give you pain but they know it
But false friends give you hopes
And make you a buffoon.'
Why do we make mistakes even when we know we are making mistakes?
Is it our vulnerability?
Is it our heart which makes us weak?
What to do when the mistake stares at us creating a fool of us?
Sometimes it's better to accept that we are human. Laugh it and forget it, and become more careful. I needed to wake up and I did. I tried, failed...tried again. Don't know if I succeeded. But I am better off now.
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Hello...knock knock...wake up Aeon!

I do not not know how to handle this situation, I am in. Sometimes I think am I giving it too much of importance? There is someone at office towards whom, I felt a connection from the first time our eyes met. We both must have been interested but hardly showed it. I know it is pretty much obvious to the person how much I care about her. It is something that I have just not been able to control. If I think I will stay aloof, I give away as soon as she is around or near me. I am kind and sweet to her. We do pull each others legs but I kind of feel that she treats all of her other coworkers equally. I tried to find a sign and all I find is that the way we look into each others eyes is deep and long. This is similar to all my past romantic relationships based on mutual liking and attraction. Apart from this I don't know what to do. I want to leave this city for good with a better life but I cannot leave her. Her life is where her boyfriend is so I must give up and just shift delete everything. In conditions like this one, it is difficult to maintain a smooth friendship. I struggle with it every day. I hate it. I feel so sorry to feel so negative about it but isn't it hopeless for a married bisexual atheist struggling with a career and personal life gone very wrong to be in love with a relation committed staunch Catholic girl from a different community and station in life? On top of this are the malevolent memories I have of my past relationships. Why do I actually need something meaningful with her? Can it not be just like...We are mutual friends with benefits? I cannot be so superficial. Whenever she is with me, she shares or tries to share the moment with her boyfriend. Perhaps she enjoys her moments with me but misses him and loves him to the extent of wanting to include him in it. So she shares her instant action reports with him to my dismay. Should I not just leave her alone? I wish I can tell her this. All that I manage to do is making her feel just the opposite. I should just let her be and soon she will forget me. I should avoid rather than stop paying her the attention that I do. Ignore her and not insult or offend her. The problem is, I don't want her to think that I was time passing with her. But what difference it makes of what she thinks? There is no future in watering this plant so let the weeds choke it. She is well covered. She has her family though they are far off. She has her kind flatmates and her former best friends. Though she never mentioned, she must be having other guy friends. At the work place she is treated nicely. Last but not the least she has her love. Why am I trying to fit in? I am actually no where. Hello...knock knock wake up Aeon!
Aside: Oops whenever 'am writing a blog post about her, she's around :P
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
The Sponge and the Stream
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Soul Searching

Sometimes you have the general feeling of being lost and without any direction. Your best friend of opposite sex tells you everything would have been so different if you were married to him.
He wouldn't have pined for a child and I wouldn't have been without a man in my life. I cannot blame him because he was always ready to be with me but I was and still feel just a friendly feeling for him.
Life has given me enough chances of soul searching. Instead of turning me bitter, it has made me a sweeter and kind person. I am sometimes surprised at my behavior. I do not believe in worshiping God in the temple but in people around. I don't know how much I succeed to be tender yet strong but I do try.
An employee, a very sincere worker is leaving today but we had no idea that his release date is today. He treated us to ice-cream which I did not have, thanks to my throat. I also did not join the farewell party but I left secret chocolates on his desk. People did not get a chance to buy him a farewell gift, but it was wonderful to see the amused sunshine smile on his face while he found the chocolates.
Thursday, September 8, 2011
Chant of God
I look at her as though she is a steady flame burning and flickering at times but managing to scorch me when in close proximity, which is happening a lot nowadays. I cannot ask her out on Onam as it's her festival and she would surely like to spend it with someone real special...may be her boyfriend. However, she made sure that I was occupied over the weekend, with her pics flooding my digicam and phone. I need to sketch her. My fascination with her has more to do with the Durga idols which are being developed at Kolkata right now. Durga Puja is hardly three weeks away and I shall not be there. I can only trace the Godly features of the long imposing nose and eyes and lips which compliment the calm, belligerent yet charming look of the Goddess Durga which I find in her.
All I could feel is a sense of worship and adoration for the face I'll trace out this week end. Isn't it interesting that her name means chant of God.
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
When Trys Take you to More Trys
For example, the situation I am in right now. I am stuck in a bad city(totally my opinion and no offense meant) and in a bad job situation. A job where I have been around for more than 1.5 years now with no increments or promotions. I also do not get to play my role as I have to compete against the oldest working (in years served in the company) employee in the department. I get paid once in two months and that also after reminders. On top of that is the astronomical notice period.
On personal front nothing seems to work out because I seem to repeat my mistakes. The guys are not good enough and yes...I hate short guys or fat guys or over the top horny guys.
All the good job offers I am getting come with huge monetary losses and relocation woes. The immigration thing is also not working since that was the primary thing which motivated me to work in my current the job.
I have also not traveled at all inside country and should I be even pining for foreign travel. Well it can't be without a partner so save money. The gym membership is also over and no solution in sight, since I had decided that I will move out of the city by this time. I also have no idea if the nuptial bit will get over peacefully in November.
Am I really in deep shit or just pmsing?
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Years of Slogging and Promotion

This is dedicated to my current...
You become head to come late to office every day.
You become head to make a manager do menial tasks.
You become head to brag about your achievements.
You become head to undermine other people's achievements.
You become head to show favoritism.
You become head to make sure you never appreciate the good qualities of someone hired to replace you.
You become head to degrade a manager in the sweetest possible way.
You become head to feel insecure.
You become head to encourage greasing.
You become head to never include a newly joined manager in important meetings.
You become head to never show any reverence to a newly joined manager in any way.
You become head to make the new manager feel that he/she is nothing inspite of his/her experience or degrees.
You become head to make sure that no interesting tasks are assigned to the new manager.
You become head to make sure the new manager does nothing that can distinguish him/her.
You become head to make sure you never ask for advice from the new manager.
You become head to become an arrogant, hypocritic, insecure, cunning, and incompetent person.
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Confessions of a 20 something IT Professional

“For the last few days or if I may say for the last 1 year, I have been subjected to too much strain and stress.
I left my job, relocated to a different city, to a different job and to a different life since I got married. I also joined my dream company with high hopes on myself as well as the company. With the passage of time everything started crumbling as work pressures mounted and with that expectation from seniors. These expectations were sometimes baseless and illogical. There was high intolerance for errors. Good qualities were mostly ignored and seldom appreciated.
I started crumbling emotionally and physically. Sense of worthlessness and pain gripped me. The optimistic me was slowly dissolving in the acid of circumstances. I started learning new things, increased my travelling and tried to make more friends. Nothing helped much as more than 12 hours in average was spent at office. Other time I was working on official documents at home after office. When my husband frequently left on long trips it strained me even further. I realized most of my friends who were once great had become so much self-centered. I hardly had any option but to take an extreme step…
I climbed up to the roof of my apartment and stood on the edge. I could visualize my whole life there, waiting to topple. I thought about all the people I had lost in the last 1 year due to various reasons. The feelings of misery become more and more severe. They were like thick black storm clouds waiting to burst out. I hated my office…my life…my worthlessness. I was a loser. I had tried so much to remedy everything. Yet nothing has clicked. As I walked on the edge I closed my eyes to embrace all that came with my decision to end everything.”
Well such is the story for so many of us. Most of us are actually concentrated in the southern region of India. The feature below also talks about it. What is the solution?
http://www.mid-day.com/lifestyle/2009/nov/191109-German-goalie-Robert-Enke-Indian-professionals.htm
Monday, February 9, 2009
It's a small world!
I am enjoying the last few days of my single life though life sans men can be hardly called a life. The huge number of women in my area of work bugs me big time. And I don't care if they are drop dead gorgeous or anything.
My recent moment of high came when my past and present merged in the form of my ex and my current facing each other. Boy they got along well. Thank god I am at peace.
My recent moment of low was finding out that my greatest fear had come true...I just have no clue where my baby "J" is.
I am getting over my heartbreak over my last organization...still wondering why things went so bad. Most of my seniors love me, consider me to be talented and with potential. I do not know what is wrong with her. Anyways never mind. Well all the green eyed people in my life have been short sighted and insensitive to my feelings.
I have been a witness to some of the worst marriages and yet...am going for one. I am also looking forward to meeting my 'doctor saab' and 'topiwaala'. Thats the best thing about my current location...it has all my dear friends at one place.
I also hate dressing in formals everyday and hate looking feminine...sporty and funky is my style and tomboy style not this yukky bit. Well I am looking forward to meeting my PM.
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Lessons Learnt form Rich Dad’s Before You Quit Your Job
Negative people are not the same as brutally honest people. It is necessary for someone to know all the hard and difficult facts about one’s situation.
There’s a difference between help and a crutch. Since arrogance leads to ignorance, it’s necessary to ask someone about something you don’t know but do not ask for too much.
Mentors are important to keep one in tract. You may not know your mentor personally as a book and also a role model can serve as a mentor figure.
The best answers are found in the heart and not in the head.
Many a time people are not as successful as they would like to be is ‘fear’. This fear is the fear of failing. This fear also prevents one to take risks and wait for the perfect situations.
What was effective ten months ago may not be effective for the current context. It’s essential to upgrade yourself and change might not be so much unsettling after all.
You do not need to be the first to win. How you market yourself or safeguard your findings and find the right people to promote it determines your position.
Just knowing what to do does not mean you know how to do it. Many times it is observed that top students at school do not perform in an outstanding way in life.
The book is written in clear and concise language and is nicely segmented for good understanding. It is a must for anyone having a hidden entrepreneur inside. Good examples from real life experiences are drawn to explain certain ideas.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
The 'Bathsheba' in My Life

I guess my relationship with my boss has become just like the one between Bathsheba Everdene and Gabriel in Hardy's 'Far From The Madding Crowd'. I am going away yet her pride will not let her say that she needs me. Only when there is a cause outside and one related to the organization, then and only then will she realize.
I never thought I will meet a Bathsheba in real life. A Bathsheba who saved Gabriel...a Bathsheba who saved me.
My Life has become one with the novel. The only difference being that Gabriel did win her in the end and I do not know since my future and destiny might take me far away.
There was also a Bathsheba in bible. This is about her.
"David, the first king of a united Israel, conqueror of an empire running from the edge of Egypt to the Euphrates River in modern-day Iraq, is one of the Bible's greatest heroes. His life and his character are documented in the Old Testament's books of Samuel and the first of the books of Chronicles. In many ways, David is the Old Testament's golden child: a charismatic shepherd boy who manages to slay Goliath with a slingshot, a successful warrior, and later a pious ruler. As author Jonathan Kirsch wrote in his biography of David, David is "the original alpha male," the "first superstar." But every hero must have a fatal flaw, and David's unchecked lust for Bathsheba becomes his fatal weakness.
In contrast to David, Bathsheba's thoughts and her character are in most circumstances mute, well cloaked in the sparse lines of the Hebrew text. Some biblical scholars describe Bathsheba as articulate and willful, while others say those accounts consist of unsubstantiated speculation. But one thing about Bathsheba is clear: It is she alone who sparks a sudden transition in David's life. The implications of their affair will dominate his remaining years. Through the life of David and into the life of her son King Solomon, Bathsheba plays many roles: object of lust, wife, mother, and influential queen."
In 'Far from The Madding Crowd', Bathsheba is a beautiful, well-educated, smart and at times vain character. She is young and inexperienced yet she goes forward with managing the farm. She does not take Gabriel seriously and only after quite some time and through ups and downs she admits that he is her closest and most loyal friend and rewards his love by marrying him.
She was the stuff that great mens' mothers are made of.
Thomas Hardy's 'Far From The Madding Crowd', features her as an independent woman with the courage to defy convention by running a farm herself. Although Bathsheba's nature leads her into serious errors of judgment, Hardy endows her with sufficient resilience, intelligence, and good luck to overcome her youthful folly.
I can see the same spark in my boss. I am also faithful to her. Things are left to time. I have sincerely striven to help her in her work though it was beyond my purview. I also care about her. With a crumbling personal life I am playing with fire. I can't help it. The 'Gabriel' in me is deeply in love with the 'Bathsheba' in her and Gabriel is also the name of an angel. I am going, I have said and I have no doubts about my decision. But she can stop me only if she understands what's there in between the lines.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Quitting My Job
A perfect workplace, does not exist. There are few perfect managers and there are no perfect employees. However there are near perfect environments. In a near perfect environment the needs of employees are met and the concerns of management are also met. This can happen in an environment of communication and consideration.
I was wondering that whether I have quit in anger but the answer is 'no'. There are areas of concern which I have addressed in my blog. I have even requested my business head to read it. I have addressed the concerns in written and verbally, without effect.
Things have only been noticed when the water has flowed above the head and mind you this was not a flood but a Tsunami. Quitting is often not the best solution, however. Addressing the problem in an adult manner, accepting my part of the blame and allowing others to admit their imperfections, and I did try with a clarifications document. Though my business head read it...she said that she does not require any clarifications.
My question is why should critical feedback only be given during periodic reviews? Why should assumptions be made rather than taking the bull by the horns and taming it.
"The best reason to quit should be that you found something that pays well, is in your area of interest, and will provide you with a fulfilling reason to want to go to work, all the remainder of your days."
Now where does my scenario fit?
-Communication skills- clarity, timeliness
-Knowledge and skills
-Resourcefulness
-Reliability
-Leadership
Keeping these aside is the consideration that how much I can value add to an organization and how difficult it will be to replace me...am I really worth retaining?
I don't know who will answer these!
A job or a marriage?

My job was just like a marriage. I was in a different city. We met each other for the first time, liked each other and putting faith entirely on that special person, I left my place, my life, my friends behind and came to a new city, to a new family.
A lot of questions had come up on my choice of the alliance. Since I had ‘better choices’. I was not too confident on my choice either but anyways I tried to carry on well. I have always been passionate about work and relationships and there was no exception this time. On the other hand I could feel deterioration striking me and something was eating me inside. Health issues cropped up soon and also critical issues at workplace.
I was promoted to a higher band but unfortunately there was no one to guide me at my new workplace. KRAs of work, organization expectation, who to please, nothing was clear. I thought that was part of the work culture here since I had come from the metro cities. To worsen the situation I got emotionally attached to one of my seniors. The one I had met on the first meeting. She seemed to like me over the time. I liked her too, adored her beyond normal limits.
Who did I know here? What else could this sensitive heart of mine have done? On the other hand I was extremely analytical and saw things as they were, not as I wanted to see them. I got along pretty well with a young team which had a lot of potential and willingness to learn. I was happy and I made up my mind to share all the treasure of my professional experience with the team. I was also preparing for the last paper of my MBA. I succeeded in my ventures soon. I had my team with me, I had my MBA degree and yes I had my seniors with me.
In my happiness I forgot the critical factors. The KRAs of work, organization expectation, who to please, these were still unclear. I also hardly received any serious professional feedback from the object of my admiration. I have a bit of lawyer in me so I love arguing. I am young hot blooded and so can’t help it. All these were building up and the death blow came in the form of a new joinee in the team. My new reporting manager. My marriage or my job which was like a marriage ended with his feedback which came in the form of the six monthly review. It was full of loop holes, it was biased. I had no strengths according to the document. It was an occurrence unprecedented in my career. Mis-communication, misconception, misunderstanding stood there all united to ruin my career and kill me.
On top of that was the severe heart breaking pain of enduring the bureaucratic behavior of the person, I have actually loved over the time. They say that when you love someone you accept that person as they are inspite of what they are. You try to groom and mentor the person not chastise or denigrate her because even bitter honesty is demotivating. I persevered, learnt from my mistakes, admitted them, tried to correct them inspite of that I failed.
Everything will go on as it is, my silent tears will dry up, my bruised heart will perhaps heal, but this episode I want to shift delete forever from my memory and life.
Friday, November 21, 2008
A good manager has at least 10 good qualities
These are Bill Gates' 10 points which a manager should keep in mind...I was wondering about my qualities of becoming a manager...Why was I given false hopes when I joined my current organization. I thought with no highly skilled people in my department, I had the chance of nurturing it to what I want it to be...happy, competent, sensible and sensitive IDs and tech writers. Little did I know that everything will crumble down soon and as such who needs a talented smart employee...sometimes what bosses need are just grateful puppets with just moderate level of skills...I can only pray God to get me out of my current misery.
Now back to the topic. The points are in first person:
1 Choose a field thoughtfully. Make it one you enjoy. It's hard to be productive without enthusiasm. This is true whether you're a manager or employee;
2 Hire carefully and be willing to fire. You need a strong team, because a mediocre team gives mediocre results, no matter how well managed it is. One mistake is holding on to somebody who doesn't measure up. It's easy to keep this person on the job because he's not terrible at what he does. But a good manager will replace him or move him to where he can succeed unambiguously;
3 Create a productive environment. This is a particular challenge because it requires different approaches depending on the context. Sometimes you maximise productivity by giving everybody his or her own office. Sometimes you achieve it by moving everybody into open space. Sometimes you use financial incentives to stimulate productivity. A combination of approaches is usually required. One element that almost always increases productivity is providing an information system that empowers employees.
When I was building Microsoft, I set out to create an environment where software developers could thrive. I wanted a company where engineers liked to work. I wanted to create a culture that encouraged them to work together, share ideas and remain motivated. If I hadn't been a software engineer myself, there's no way I could have achieved my goal;
4 Define success. Make it clear to your employees what constitutes success and how they should measure their achievements. Goals must be realistic. Project schedules, for example, must be set by the people who do the work. People will accept a "bottoms-up" deadline they helped set, but they'll be cynical about a schedule imposed from the top that doesn't map to reality. Unachievable goals undermine an organisation. At my company, in addition to regular team meetings and one-on-one sessions between managers and employees, we use mass gatherings periodically and E-mail routinely to communicate what we expect from employees. If a reviewer or customer chooses another company's product , we analyse the situation. We say to our people, "The next time around we've got to win. What's needed?" The answers to these questions help us define success;
5 To be a good manager, you have to like people and be good at communicating. This is hard to fake. If you don't enjoy interacting with people, it'll be hard to manage them well. You must have a wide range of personal contacts within your organisation. You need relationships - not necessarily personal friendships - with a fair number of people, including your own employees. You must encourage these people to tell you what's going on and give you feedback about what people are thinking about the company and your role in it;
6 Develop your people to do their jobs better than you can. Transfer your skills to them. This is an exciting goal, but it can be threatening to a manager who worries that he's training his replacement. If you're concerned, ask your boss: "If I develop somebody who can do my job super well, does the company have some other challenge for me or not?" Many smart managers like to see their employees increase their responsibilities because it frees the managers to tackle new or undone tasks. There's no shortage of jobs for good managers. The world has an infinite amount of work to be done;
7 Build morale. Make it clear there's plenty of goodwill to go around and that it's not just you or some hotshot manager who's going to look good if things go well. Give people a sense of the importance of what they're working on - its importance to the company, its importance to customers;
8 Take on projects yourself. You need to do more than communicate. The last thing people want is a boss who just doles out stuff. From time to time, prove you can be hands-on by taking on one of the less attractive tasks and using it as an example of how your employees should meet challenges;
9 Don't make the same decision twice. Spend the time and thought to make a solid decision the first time so that you don't revisit the issue unnecessarily. If you're too willing to reopen issues, it interferes not only with your execution but also with your motivation to make a decision in the first place. People hate indecisive leadership; However, that doesn't mean you have to decide everything the moment it comes to your attention. Nor that you can't ever reconsider a decision.
10 Let people know whom to please. Maybe it's you, maybe it's your boss, and maybe it's somebody who works for you. You're in trouble and risking paralysis in your organisation when employees start saying to themselves: "Am I supposed to be making this person happy or this other person happy? They seem to have different priorities."
I don't pretend that these are the only 10 approaches a manager should keep in mind. There are lots of others. Just a month ago I encouraged leaders to demand bad news before good news from their employees. But these 10 ideas may help you manage well, and I hope they do.
Original article at:http://www.btimes.co.za/97/1102/tech/tech6.htm
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Is My Job Miserable?

Anybody doing any type of job can be miserable. Suffering from severe Sunday night blues or feeling disgusted coming to office are all symptoms of this. You come home defeated, not wanting to go back and dreading it.
What causes this feeling of miserableness/ unhappiness?
Absence of these 3 important things can make you unhappy at work.
1. Your manager/ boss/ reporting manager has no interest whatsoever in your work and life. Mind you, I have also mentioned life. It is really necessary to know a person in order to bring the best out of him/ her professionally. For example a worker may be sick or having some difficulty, say managing a new born baby. Your manager does not know you or cares about you and ignores you as an individual, as a human.
2. Knowing that your work makes no difference in anybody’s life. Irrelevance, which is a killer. We may not be a doctor or a teacher doing a service to society but even if we know that we are helping others- customers, team members, subordinates, seniors. Not knowing this will make us unhappy.We have to think how our work can value add?
3. When you suffer from, 'Dunno where I am goin syndrome'. No feedback on how we are doing at work. We cannot wait for appraisals just to know how we are doing. Praises and Criticism are required on a regular basis. If we have a mentor figure at office who always gives us an unbiased opinion of our work and who knows what we do and how we do it. Now the question lies how do we get this feedback?
There may be other things as well but statistics reveal that more than 75% people quit jobs because of their managers and not for other reasons like money, better job profile etc.
Monday, November 17, 2008
Tips for Becoming a Gentlemanly/womanly Executive
In a recent article in the London Times, William Drew asks, “Is the gentleman a dying breed?”In the piece, Drew quotes Yann Debelle de Montby, brand director at Alfred Dunhill, the tony men’s outfitter. “Being a true gentleman,” he says, “means being gallant and generous. One can be gentle but remain firm, determined and retain a great sense of humour.”
But does the gentleman have a place in today’s go-go, go get-’em business world? Drew thinks yes. “Old-fashioned good manners — holding open doors, standing up when someone enters the room, asking questions of others rather than talking about yourself, ensuring that you compliment your host generously and so on — are an entry point for respectful behavior,” he notes. “But it’s more about your overall manner towards others: how one conducts oneself not only socially, but also in business, in relationships and in public.”
But being a modern-day gentlemen in business is about more than just being nice for nice’s sake, especially when the chips are down. Says luxury goods retailer, Trevor Pickett: “When your back’s against the wall in any industry you fall back on the relationships that you have built with people. You can’t do that if you’ve just screwed them on price, for example. That’s just not the way we do things.”
Drew offers 10 tips for the aspiring modern-day gentlemen (which go equally well for the modern-day gentlewoman):
1. Some things don’t change: say please and thank you and ask questions about other people rather than talk about yourself. I would like to add that, also have the guts to say sorry sincerely if you really are at fault.
2.Be punctual. Tardiness does not make you look important, it turns you into an arrogant incompetent who thinks that his time is more important than other people’s. Avoid giving excuses when you are late, apologise.
3.The modern gentleman cares about the planet. Be environmentally aware (but not obnoxious about it).
4.Open doors for people and stand up when they enter a room, but do this for men as well as women. The modern gentleman doesn’t treat women like porcelain.
5.Be modest. Bragging is distinctly ungentlemanly. Talk about your achievements when required like in interviews.
6.Be a good father. Nothing is less charming than a man who leaves childcare to women. Be a good mother too, office can't be more important than your child.
7.Be honest about wherever you have come from in life. Pretension is spineless.
8.Flirt — with everyone. Good flirting is a form of politeness. Pay compliments and put your companion at ease.
9.Do not phone/text/check your BlackBerry incessantly.
10.Dress tidily. Whatever style you are going for, scruffiness just isn’t in. Also make sure you smell good.
I, for one, shall be doing my level best to flirt with everyone much more often.
Friday, November 7, 2008
Disappointment

I do not share everything with my Mom but I only speak with her about such issues when I feel very hurt and vulnerable. I do not hold any personal grudges against people but only against their actions or processes. I felt pestered for such a petty sum. Whats the big deal...why send so many mails. It was not an issue at all. I have worked hard all this while to hear: " I am disappointed with you"
What should I say...I was breaking apart inside. I probably knew what was in between the lines.
Yeh kya hua
Kaise hua
Kab hua
Kyu hua
Choro...yeh naa pooncho
Which company was she talking about...the company who never arranged for a transport for me from airport to office, even though I was new to the place and alone and travelled from a different city.
The company which never provided me with an accommodation...not even helping me directly to find it.
Noone turned up at the hospital or even called me during the stay there after my mom arrived.
Noone called me when I was away on medical leave.
I am a disappointment????????????
For a mail...a few angry words...for being impulsive...?
I do not want to increase your disppointment or mine any more...
You are well mannered but also sweetly rude and I am well mannered but explicitly curt when things go wrong...I can't hide it like you.
I am sure my review is screwed...and all did depend on my decision to carry out things.