I do not know which direction I am floating to. Life comes a full circle again. I am standing at the same place it seems. As the job story will go no further. I have decided to shut it one for all. I told them in August itself and they did nothing. I refuse to feel like nothing because I don't want mails of encouragement. I want results and in two years I got none. How did I manage to keep myself motivated for so long? Keep my team motivated? I was determined to rub off the blot from my reputation of being fickle and escapist. My struggle and win will tell another story.
I am willing to fight it out again and may be I am tired to fight alone for so long. I do not dedy the fact that the most difficult thing in this world is to motivate oneself against odds, loneliness, difficulties...of ignoring the realities and concentrating on the brighter side. I don't care nowadays if no positive words come out of people. I have just moved beyond all this. I hope I'll find shore soon.
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