Over the Jebel Mountains...

Over the other side of the mountains lies someone who I so much care about, I stood in the Jebel mountains on the side of Oman, thinking. I could almost hear her breathing in the winds. It was hot and humid but the beauty was breathtaking. ‘Just half an hour to Dubai Memsaab,’ my guide said. Could he read the loss on my face, the sadness in my eyes?

Six degrees of separation between us when so many times I travelled. I do not feel anxious for this person as she is with her blood relations. Just I was feeling a bit happy looking at the’ tangri kebabs’ which she loved as a dish, the words of the past echo in my ears…’Well, I have my priorities…’. Like glass bowl shattering upon concrete, I feel as I shut the door and lock it once again. A door of our memories together. I don’t leave them in the Jebel mountains in her land. I leave a part of myself there.

Why should I?

It's a very hard breaking not heartbreaking thing for someone single during Christmas. I sometimes think is it better to be committed or be single and independent?

Sometimes I feel I was lucky to come here, work here in this designation. On the other hand it has been bad since there is hardly anyone in office with whom I can even informally discuss work. I am the only transition zone employee.

When I liked someone I made it pretty much obvious without showing off but that particular person always wanted to tread on the cautious line. That person is conscious and a thousand times careful not to give any impression of favoring me. Huh its funny since I am the Senior. On top of that, there are days of losing control and so I am sick and tired of being confused by this person. I have let go. Now I only end up being kind and nice but detached. I don't get any assertiveness from that person so why should I show any?

Unfortunately we have also lost any chances of 'we' time and I know for sure that I am leaving early next year. My Kerala travel plans...huh :( I was this close and it's gone...burst like a bubble.

Traveling the World

I have been working continuously for the last one year. Not taken any breaks for travel, trek or picnics. This stagnation irks me big time. So I am planning my next travel. My most precious dream of traveling the world as a backpacker.

I always thought if I did not have a kid by the time I was thirty, I will take my chance to fulfill my greatest and most ambitious dream. Taking up each continent and backpacking through it. I wanted to start with Europe. Even the thought of it excites me so much. So many weeks and months go into office work. If I spend even a week in Italy or Spain, how enriching it will be?

I am determined and I will fulfill this. So my planning has begun.