Monday, September 1, 2008
The Bridge
I have to cross this bridge every evening and morning to reach office and while coming home. If I don’t then I have to cross the super busy expressway. So I prefer the first option. Deserted and dark this bridge is sinister and the walk from my office gates to this bridge is uphill. I do not have my own vehicle so I walk everyday. There have been times when someone from office has given me a lift home but I prefer not to depend on anyone. You may call me proud for that matter.
I used to be pretty scared of crossing the bridge all alone. So many things can happen. I may be hit by a vehicle; somebody may grab the opportunity of doing just anything. After all I will be a solitary girl taking a risk.
One day I found a fellow traveler on the bridge. Probably another girl like me. As the rain beat upon my face and it was pitch dark, from my torchlight I could make her walking along side. From then onwards every evening used to be the same. I got habituated seeing her but there was only one problem. As soon I crossed the bridge, I crossed the road also and then I used to lose trail of her. Where did she vanish…? I used to wonder often. So there was my sinister companion showing me the way. I soon stopped using my torch because I used to follow her. She was swift to notice any vehicle before I did.
Then, I stopped seeing her around suddenly. There was nothing between us. We never spoke or looked at each other yet I missed her. My solitary journeys across the bridge resumed.
Then one evening I saw her again. There were lights all around that place now and the bridge was illuminated. That day the lights flickered and the bridge was suddenly engulfed in darkness and I was wondering whether I should take out my torch; I saw her. As usual dressed in shades of some light colored fabric. I did not want to lose my chance this time and called out to her..Hello Excuse me!
She did not stop and I increased my pace and was just about to catch her when the lights came back. There was not a trace of her anywhere and I doubted my own vision. I stood there wondering where she had vanished. Then I saw her on the nearby hill. I do not know what gripped me but I went after her. In the darkness on the slippery stones, I trudged along.
Then suddenly I heard the whistle;there were policemen down. I came back and walked till my apartment.
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
The Girl On the Balcony

Lost Love

Its been a long time since I have walked on Sundane avenue. However used to frequent it a lot during my Varsity days. Reason…huh my better half used to live there. Now why did I say my better half.
To know that, we have to take a flight back memory lane. Joe and I went to the same college though separate faculties. She was studying philosophy. You must have seen a winged insect leaping into flames. My attitude to Joe was just like that. I knew she was seeing some other guy called Don. But I had to slip…and that also right in her arms. We had a whirlwind romance that lasted a little over 2 years and then I guess…Out of Mind..Out of sight.
Some things just haunt you forever…Its all about haunting that I want to tell you about.The incident occurred a few months back.
I was standing on Sundane Avenue just facing her house.I was drunk and dizzy that day.So as I sulked and looked dreamily at that familiar balcony, so many memories flooded my mind.Memories of a rain soaked afternoon…and many more.
It was also raining today.Suddenly I saw Joe coming out on the balcony.Our eyes got locked for a moment as I decided to stay there no longer but as soon as I turned away to leave, I found my self face to face with her.
I never ever thought that Joe had such a nimble foot. It was simply amazing.There was something in her eyes. Some sort of intimidation..something which made me follow her in the house.I have gazed in them so many times but never ever felt so much of immediacy. Once in the house the rain and thunder coupled with our repressed longing for each other scorched us away.We met as though like the angry passionate sea breaking over rocks. A little after evening I left. As the effect of liquor started waning out, I realized what I had done.
I remembered why Joe and I had broken up in the first place. She got married somewhere outside town in a different state. To Don of course. The woman I had promised never to touch again…How could I? A sense of guilt and disgust overtook me as I trudged home.
It took me another two months to know the truth. After work I was sitting at a bar when I had a chance meeting with Liam. Liam happened to be a distant relative of Joe. From him I came to know about Joe. Joe died in an accident on a visit to her maternal home on Sundane Avenue. It was a rainy afternoon when the old balcony on which she stood collapsed. She died instantly, the fall having crushed her skull. Liam was speaking to one of his chums as I overheard the conversation. But he said something else."Joe did not die alone. Mat was with her and to this day we can't figure out how he got to be with her. Perhaps Joe was cheating on her husband. They got laid on graves beside each other at St Peter's."I wondered what about Mat. Who is this guy with my name?
Curious and disturbed I almost sped up to St Peters only to find the worst.
Joe Flints and Mat Bigs lay side by side. But Mat Jason Bigs(MJ) - 1976-2004??
If MJ was dead who am I?