My Pain and Indulgence

I do not know if this is indulgence but I feel exactly like this Vicky Donor song....so quoting it...

Toote foote dil mein (In the broken heart)
Mere dil mein, dua tu bann ke rehti hai (In my heart, you stay like a blessing)
Nochein aur karochein (It scratches..tears apart)
Tere vaade, teri baatein....(Your promises...your sayings)

It's become a habit with me indulging what I have lost. I have a strange satisfaction. Dip dip dip it goes like the tea bag adding flavour to the hot water...making it bitter yet aromatic...strong and red.

Mar Jayian Lyrics

Yaadein teri yaadein
Teri baatein, jala ti hai zindagi
Raatein kaali raatein
Darrati hain, sataati hain
Mar jayian, tere bin mar jayian
Mar jayian, tere bin mar jayian re

Toote foote dil mein
Mere dil mein, dua tu bann ke rehti hai
Nochein aur karochein
Tere vaade, teri baatein
Mar jayian, tere bin mar jayian
Mar jayian, tere bin mar jayian re
Mar jayian, tere bin mar jayian
Mar jayian, tere bin mar jayian re

Mere liye jo nahin, khud ke liya toh aa
Sataa mujhe, rulaa mujhe
Tu jo nahin hai toh, gham bhi nahin koi
Aa bhi ja, aa bhi ja, aa bhi ja
Mar jayian, tere bin mar jayian
Mar jayian, tere bin mar jayian re
Mar jayian, tere bin mar jayian
Mar jayian, tere bin mar jayian re

Honge thode shikwe, thodi behnse
Thode se garmi ke lamhe
Aaja aake karle, umeedon ke tukde tukde
Mar jayian, tere bin mar jayian
Mar jayian, tere bin mar jayian re
Mar jayian, tere bin mar jayian
Mar jayian, tere bin mar jayian re
Mar jayian, tere bin mar jayian
Mar jayian, tere bin mar jayian re