Downside of Feminity

I do not know how to control the ultra feminine parts inside. For example, mood swings. I look like a bird and sting like a bee sometimes. For men it's a part of their lives to handle it but what about women? It may take me a second to crush my cool dude persona. But again we will know what someone we like do not likes. If we can avoid it we should or else what is the value of having a relationship? Why do we understand and repeat our mistakes over and over?

This is not a consolatory or confessional piece. It's a justification of my actions. I can't cope with her superficiality, stupidity, passivity, and flirting any more. I give her more than she deserves and all I want that she spares me of all the subtle taunts, insults, and attempts to make me jealous. And not to mention all the disgusting gifts and all the thoughts of associating most things with her. Why?

I am that arrogant, that I want first class accommodation in someones heart when it counts or else I just don't want to be there at all. And no one should fool with a creative person who is bound to be complex inside and can well be turbulent with unresolved traumatic memories.