Truman...

Well nowadays most of my write ups are colored by cynicism. I do not like talking to my old friends, exes etc. I am not going through a phase of depression. I am just realizing that all we take for granted as reality is a facade. What happens when you discover this? Same thing what happened to Truman in The Truman Story.

I don't like anything and it's been ages since I have visited the capital of Thailand (pun intended). I am going through a mid life crisis..yup. Please imagine I am drowning in a sea of smileys. I never knew I will end up like the medley of the 18th century satirists, Alexander Pope and Jonathan Swift. O I know now how they felt about the eternal cancerous...cantankerous world. I wrote my first poetic masterpiece 'Worthless World' when I was around thirteen. I see all the truth now. I am tired of taking a control of things. It's also true that when you are not in a meaningful relationship or as a matter of fact no relationship, all the meaning from your life slowly vanishes.

It's only my job that gets me going. I am afraid it will get me some day for good.