Fear of Leaving

I do fall into fits of dementia when thinking about you, especially at night. I am deeply affected by Mom mentioning that she doubts if you are alive. She never ever makes that kind of statement about any of my friends. Did she read my mind of fears? I am really worried now after the occurrence of the series of uncanny incidents and now her assumption. It’s not baseless. Is it not unnatural for you not to try to connect with me? I know you are there with me on the other level. I also cannot seem to find you during the projected journeys. I tried to find you as promised but it was your turn to come to me in person. You are doing it now but only in spirit. How can that be true? Because if that is, then I have very little time left. I fear leaving.