Sunday, October 16, 2011

Love or Something Like it

It felt awful to slog out at office. Though I did not have a deadline, I had a ticking in head to finish all the work on Saturday rather than sitting on it the next week. Working on a Saturday itself is horrible.

I did not know how to react to her boyfriend booking movie tickets for us. Fast forward and we are walking down a tree-lined lane which is a shortcut to reduce the auto fare. Thanks to my avid map knowledge we pulled the thing pretty well. We reached the mall, freshened up and moved to the food court. Well I do like to compete against my younger counterpart in terms of attracting attention and I did score more. I was terribly elated inside. On the other hand it's actually awful because I like her so much. I think I am in love with her. Her happiness, her smile, her well being matters so much to me. She feels totally at ease as she talks about her best friend and boyfriend. I listen patiently. Then we come upon a VW servicing center and she offers to take me around her native place in her VW car.

The day progresses into lunch, then movie, auto rides, crowded bus rides, beach, sea water, dinner, car drop home. Such a long long time spent with a girl. I don't know when was the last time I spent so much time with a girl. I still feel the emptiness because I see her with her boyfriend. She is sitting beside him in the car. She tends his painful shoulder and then mine when he is gone for a short while. She is shocked at the powerful deltoids as I tell her, about my years of weight training. I tend her shoulders but she find it tickling. I brush her hair from her face and inch towards her as she tries to show me a crab. I could almost feel her face against mine when her guy returns and says something to startle us.

I cannot expect much. I like her guy a lot and I think they are a great couple. But my single life stings me like a nettle when I see them both. I am also not jealous but it hurts somewhere because I have feelings for her. And it hurts more that she is a kind and honest girl who is attracted to me in some way.

As I get down from the car and she wants to come up...I say it's late and bid goodbye to the sweetest couple in this world. I do leave behind something in the back seat, a few drops of secret tears.


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My dedication to you...chand chupa badal mei sharmake meri jaane jaana...I saw the orange moon...I saw your face


My Karva Chauth Date

How do I feel

Just looking at you?

They just pass by, the hours…

Me just looking into your eyes

With a smile on my lips…

Sketching you on the canvas of my heart,

While you turn to go and I call your name

You do not seem to hear it

So I call again… once twice thrice till all hear it.

And you run to me asking what is it that you called?

So I take your name again

To make you blush.

And I want to steal you away

From this world

Take you where we can lie on the sand.

Counting the stars.

One two three four

They blink like glow worms…

I look at you,

To trace the silhouette of your sharp face,

Against the moon.

I come to my senses,

And I realize,

We have sat for eternity,

At that table,

Just looking at each other.

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